"Alright, I Gotcha, I Gotcha...".

I knew this was coming, but it still hurt just as bad as if I didn't even see it coming. I wasn't sure what my feet were doing. As they walked away from the boy I had invested so much into, the pain I usually felt, the stabbing, heart slicing pain, wasn't there. So did it really hurt as much as I had said?  I knew I wasn't sure weather my head and heart were in agreement, but after a moment I knew they were. They both screamed: "Enough Is Enough Lindsi. You don't deserve to be treated this way!" as I looked at my reflection in the mirror. I reached out to it and touched my reflected face, and said: "You are a strong independent, wonderful, amazing girl. You deserve a MAN that will shower you in love and affection, not a BOY that plays you like a toy." I smiled as two tears slipped down my cheeks. As i walked calmly back out to the reality, I felt a change come over me. I'm still trying to determine what that change is. I just don't feel the same way I did before. Did the guard I have said I was going to place over my heart finally fall around it? Did I put up a sheild to not allow myself to feel anymore pain? Did I finally reach the "I've had enough" point? As I looked over at him I felt no anger, no sadness, no nothing anymore. I felt a sence of freedom. Like a bird with clipped wings that just taught itself to fly. I will sore high above him, and shit on his head. Ah, see, theres the anger. :) So, I'm movin on, at last I can see, life has been patiently waiting for me. So, there are going to be some changes. Some Big. Some small. I'm going to pave my own road.